Like Lines Out of my Diary
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Music, I dance to it, cry to it, and sing to it every day. Music, a constant in my life, although my favorite songs and artists have changed over the years, the amount of music Ilisten has been constant in my life since I was young.
While I used to love music for catchy lyrics and upbeat tempos I now view music in a much different light.
In recent years I have been able to find songwriters and musicians who take thoughts right off the tip of my tongue and sing about them. This is something quite beautiful, not only does this help me understand and look into my thoughts, but it also helps me make personable connections with artists that I can look up to and admire.
Hearing a song that you truly connect to is a magical experience. I can't remember the first time I felt this, but I do remember more recent songs that have made me feel this way. Some examples include, “enough for you”-Olivia Rodrigo, “fight or flight”-Conan Gray, “Nothing New”-Taylor Swift ft.Phoebe Bridgers, and “Watercolor Eyes”-Lana Del Rey all songs I can name off the top of my head that have made me feel that kind of magic.
Sometimes, being human, we forget that other people share the experiences we are going through, and try to feel sorrow for ourselves in solidarity. In times of grieving, jealousy, depression, helplessness, etc. we tend to make ourselves believe that there couldn't possibly be someone else going through the same emotions, and that we must tread through this rough season alone. However, music has become an escape route for me when I begin feeling this way and sending myself down a spiral.
Recently I found myself wanting to change bits and pieces of myself inside and out to try and impress a boy. I felt lost, confused, and overall mad at myself for developing these thoughts. As I was going through these motions, Conan Gray announced that his new song “Jigsaw” was released. I enjoy most of Conan’s music so inevitably I decided to give the song a listen. I was about 20 seconds into the song and felt my eyes filled with tears. This song was written so beautifully and completely read my mind, it was like Conan was singing lines out of my diary. In this moment I felt heard and listened to. Someone else was experiencing my same experience with the want to appease others in return for affection.
Overall music has become not only a source of joy but a coping mechanism for when I don't know how to explain the emotions of which I am feeling, which happens to be a lot. I love the freedom, compassion, and comfort music brings me which is why I speak of it so often. I don't think I would be anywhere close to the person I am today if I couldn’t listen to the songs and artists I love today.
Great post Ella!! You made some very very excellent and valid points! :) I totally agree with what you said that some artist just seem to perfectly place your own thoughts and feelings into a song. I also understood deeply when you said at that listening to these songs made you realize and understand that somewhere in the world, somebodies relating and feeling the same emotions as you. This post is very eye-opening and i really enjoyed reading it. Good job!! :D
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