On the Other Side of the Door
On the other side of the door lies my secrets, truths, and fears. My guard that I rarely let down. Security in my emotions, content in my shelter.
Other windows allow people to look in, peer into their souls. Share their deepest darkest truths in exchange for sunlight. Sometimes I wish I could be a window, wear my heart on my sleeve and constantly overshare parts of my life with strangers just crossing by.
However, Windows are fragile, they don’t stand a chance of hiding or keeping away information from people that shouldn;t hear or receive it. Doors are strong and sturdy, my door is only opened once I fully trust and have faith in another person.
Yet, every door leads to a room, a space you can take up as your own, or share with another, and although each room in a house only needs one door to control the entrance and exit of others, each room could use a window to brighten up the space.
Personally I found my window a few years ago just before entering high school. With big changes to my school's family life I was feeling very anxious and depressed. With my door standing strong, I was unaware how hurtful it would later become to leave the mess of hurt and pain on the floor. Then I became closer with a girl named Maddy, one of the shiniest windows I have ever met. Within moments of speaking to her, you too will understand the clear thin piece of glass she places over her feelings. She was constantly, sharing stories, talking about her ups and downs, and would start crying mid conversation letting her emotions peak through no matter the subject.
Maddy taught me alot, she showed how to be less guarded, speak up when I needed help, and how to not care what other people think about my life. All of the love, hate, happiness, thoughtfulness, and sadness on the other side of my door was finally being let out. Although I still stand with a tall door ahead of me, I now know how to open it up whenever appropriate.
So even if you find yourself like me, shielded in almost every social encounter, a strong door locked off to the world, maybe you just haven't met the right window to share your vulnerability with yet.
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I love this and it was such a good read! It really dives into the aspects of people having their walls up and I liked how you compared yourself to the security aspect of the door. The mention of Maddy and how she is your window, as well as your closing sentence, was my favorite part.
ReplyDeleteElla this was such an amazing post! The way you related doors and windows with real people and emotions was so interesting and extremely accurate. I felt that I was truly able to understand your explanations and even associate myself with some of your points. This was such a great read!
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