When I first thought about this topic, I could not remember a single thing from fourth grade. I thought about it for a while and continued trying to figure out why this was, it was to the point that I could not even remember my 4th-grade teacher’s name. While this could just be due to the fact that I was in fourth grade eight years ago. I noticed one big event that occurred during 2015, my fourth-grade year, my brother passing away.
I believe that because of this traumatic event, my mind blocked off most of my fourth-grade year, as I was so focused on my loss, that I did not have time to be a normal fourth grader. I learned in my psychology class this year that it is very common and easy for this to occur.
Some people would assume that due to how long ago this grade was, I simply just forgot, but I have absolutely no recollection of anything from that year in school. What convinces me of my theory is that I can remember details even back to kindergarten so what caused me to so easily forget everything from that year?
However, looking back, I do not think I would want to remember my fourth-grade year. Knowing that the year was packed with trauma, family drama, and missing constant school, I am glad I have no memories of that year. Not to mention, I was extremely bullied at the school I had been going to at the time.
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I got chills after reading the last sentence of your first paragraph; that was such a powerful opening and this read was so tear-jerking. I liked how you were able to recognize how trauma could affect memory and you did a great job at expressing emotion within this blog.
ReplyDeleteYour blog was probably one of the most impactful ones I’ve read all year. It takes a lot of courage to talk about your personal trauma and how it has affected your memories and your life. I found your last paragraph to be particularly strong, where you talk about why you are somewhat glad you don’t remember.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing Vivi your story. My heart aches for your loss and I'm so incredibly sorry as well. I coincidentally and very similarly don't remember my 4th grade year due to some unfortunate events and traumas that occurred, that I will forever carry with me :(. You did such a great job expressing your emotions in this piece of writing. Keep up the amazing work, you're doing great! ♡
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